Review: When Elephants Fly by Nancy Richardson Fischer

Title: When Elephants Fly

Author: Nancy Richardson Fischer

Publisher: Harlequin Teen

Publishing Date: September 4th, 2018

Pages: 400
Audio Length: 9 Hours and 43 Minutes

Genre: YA Mental Health Contemporary
TW: Suicide, abuse, animal abuse, schizophrenia 

Series: Standalone

Source: Audio

 

There are some battles worth fighting even if it means losing yourself.
T. Lily Decker is a high school senior with a twelve-year plan: avoid stress, drugs, alcohol and boyfriends, and take regular psych quizzes administered by her best friend, Sawyer, to make sure she's not developing schizophrenia.Genetics are not on Lily's side.
When she was seven, her mother, who had paranoid schizophrenia, tried to kill her. And a secret has revealed that Lily's odds are even worse than she thought. Still, there's a chance to avoid triggering the mental health condition, if Lily can live a careful life from ages eighteen to thirty, when schizophrenia most commonly manifests.
But when a newspaper internship results in Lily witnessing a mother elephant try to kill her three-week-old calf, Swifty, Lily can't abandon the story or the calf. With Swifty in danger of dying from grief, Lily must choose whether to risk everything, including her sanity and a first love, on a desperate road trip to save the calf's life, perhaps finding her own version of freedom along the way.

This was my second read of April and it was even better than the first one, Keep This To Yourself. 

I wasn't expecting to love this book, or to have as much of an emotional response like I did. I have been avoiding writing this review because I'm not sure how to put into words how much this book affected me. 

The cover is just okay to me, I love the color and I can see how it would fit the book. But it's just kind of... Meh.



I love mental health books, anyone who reads my reviews knows that. I haven't read too many books about schizophrenia but I loved reading about it from the POV of a loved one of the person who had schizophrenia. Does that make sense?
Anyway. This is a great book about mental health. Lily does everything in her power to keep from ending up like her mother. She lives a boring, easy life. She doesn't have but one friend, she doesn't go out much, do anything exciting.
And then she takes an internship at a paper and everything just goes crazy.
She realizes that sometimes life is worth the risk and that maybe if something does trigger her schizophrenia then maybe it wouldn't be that bad of a thing.

Then on top of the schizophrenia, you have the animal abuse and the thing with the circus, and then you also have the thing with her best friend, about his dad hating him for being gay, and you also have her realizing how selfish she was being and it's just a whole big thing all wrapped up into one book.

The only thing is the romance part of the book. I liked the romance in general, it felt natural and sweet and I loved the development of it. However I almost wish it wasn't in this book. I think I would have liked to see her come into herself without adding a guy into it.

And let me just tell you, I love the elephant. I wanted nothing more than to take care of her. I wanted her to live and I never knew I'd be so invested in an elephants story.



It started out just a little bit slow and kind of kept that pace over the whole book. But it fits the book I think, it's just a very level pace.



I feel like the author did a really good job in writing about the mental illness. She made it all feel very real.
The emotions were written well, they were raw and real and powerful. I felt a lot when reading this, and that's something that's not easy to do. It's not easy to make the reader feel these kinds of emotions. Maybe if it's something that the reader feels personally, like for me anything about self harm, depression, etc. But for something such as schizophrenia to hit me so hard? I don't know anyone who has schizophrenia.

Nancy really made me want to keep reading this book, I was completely surrounded by this book and I didn't want it to stop. I already mentioned how invested I was in the elephant's story and man was I ever invested. I was scared and worried and I wanted her to be okay and I feel like you have to be a pretty good author to make me feel so much for an animal that doesn't talk or anything.



I absolutely loved Lily's growth in this book. I had mentioned it above, but she really does grow and come to the realization that life is short, and it's best to live your life to the fullest. What's the point of living if you're going to be miserable?

I also loved her best friend Sawyer, I felt so bad for him. He was so sweet and such a great friend, and all Lily did was talk about herself and not even think about his feelings.

And of course Swifty, the baby elephant. Who couldn't love swifty? The whole book was about her. She was the best part, of course.



There wasn't too much world building that needed to be done, I don't think. But from what was done, she did a good job.



Everything was so perfect in the end. I loved it. It was all wrapped up nicely in an elephant sized bow.





So much more than I thought it would be. This book gave me a major book hangover and I can't tell you the last time I had one of those. 

“The one certainty in life is that it changes.”
― Nancy Richardson Fischer, When Elephants Fly

I've written for a circus, a graduate school, tried my hand at waitressing (I was terrible!), baking carrot cakes (I was messy but good!), and been lucky enough to ultimately do what I love - write.
I live in the Pacific Northwest with my husband and our mostly wonderful (but sometimes vorpal) Vizsla. When I'm not conjuring a story, I love to kite-board, bike, ski or plan adventures with my two guys, who both make me laugh for different reasons and are the best partners in fun a gal could ever imagine.


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Cover Up: May 2020 Gorgeous Reads

This feature I will just gab, remark, feature book covers. 

Here are some of the most gorgeous May 2020 covers I've found so far! 

Down The TBR Hole 17

Ash:

I just want to say I have no idea how these books all ended up on my TBR next to each other. Kind of interesting they're all titled the same.

Breathless by Cole Gibsen

Obituary-reading emo girl Edith Small is broken - the end result of forcing herself inside a mold that doesn't fit. All she wants is to conform to her strict sergeant stepfather's rules long enough to make it to graduation day. But a boat accident threatens to unravel the life Edith has worked so hard to keep. After waking up in a hospital with a lacerated shoulder, Edith fakes amnesia. Because admitting she received her injuries from a blue-haired girl who breathes underwater is all the reason Sir needs to send Edith on the first bus to military school. Safe at home, Edith struggles to put the nightmare behind her. But the mysterious creatures that live in the ocean aren't about to let her forget. After meeting Bastin - a strange boy with silver hair and black eyes - on a secluded dock, Edith learns about the war raging undersea to end human existence. A war that Edith, unwittingly, has become the key to winning. In a world where death is an ever-present shadow and motives are as dark as the bottom of the ocean, Edith must decide if her life is worth risking for a love that can't survive past the shore.

This one certainly looks interesting, though I'm not sure about "emo girl" part. I'll keep it for now. 

Breathless by Jessica Warman

When Katie Kitrell is shipped off to boarding school, it doesn't take her long to become part of the It Crowd. She's smart, she's cute, and she's a swimming prodigy who has a first-class ticket to any Ivy League school of her choice. But what her new friends, roommate, and boyfriend don't know is that Katie is swimming away from the secrets of her past, and from the schizophrenic older brother, Will, who won't let her go. As Katie's star rises, Will descends deeper into insanity. And when he does the unthinkable, it's all Katie can do to keep her head above water. Largely based on the author's own experiences, Breathless is a stunning debut that explores illness and health, love and lust, friends and enemies, and the moneyed world of prep school with a deft, expert hand.

This one looks really good. So I'll keep it too. 

Breathless by Lurlene McDaniel
 

"What is the toughest request anyone can be asked to fulfill?"
Travis Morrison is a champion diver and one of the most popular kids at school. On the first day of summer vacation, while boating on the lake with his friends, Travis attempts a silly stunt dive that goes wrong. He fears he has broken his leg. Instead, his trip to the hospital reveals he has a rare form of cancer, and to save him, the doctors tell his parents they must amputate. In an instant, Travis's life and the lives of everyone around him are forever changed.
Travis is determined that he and only he should decide the course of his life. He has a plan, but he can't carry it out alone. Will he convince one of his friends to fulfill his most important request?
Lurlene McDaniel tackles a controversial subject, probing the issues of personal choice and quality of life.

I don't think I'm going to keep this one. 

Jenn-

My tastes have really changed and I'm so over all of these. 

Mythic Misadventures series by Carolyn Hennesy

13-year-old Pandora Atheneus Andromaeche Helena (or Pandy, for short) has no idea what she’ll bring for her school project. By accident she discovers a simple box, said to contain something so terrifying and horrible that no one must ever, ever touch it for fear of inflicting all of mankind with the wrath of the Gods and Goddesses. This, of course, makes the box the perfect thing for Pandora to bring for her school project. Unfortunately, things don’t go quite the way she was hoping, and the box accidentally gets opened, unleashing all kinds of evil and misery into the world. Hauled before Zeus, Hera and the rest of immortals, Pandy’s given the task of collecting all the evils within a year’s time.

Leaving Paradise by Simone Elkeles

Nothing has been the same since Caleb Becker left a party drunk, got behind the wheel, and hit Maggie Armstrong. Even after months of painful physical therapy, Maggie walks with a limp. Her social life is nil and a scholarship to study abroad—her chance to escape everyone and their pitying stares—has been canceled.
After a year in juvenile jail, Caleb’s free . . . if freedom means endless nagging from a transition coach and the prying eyes of the entire town. Coming home should feel good, but his family and ex-girlfriend seem like strangers.
Caleb and Maggie are outsiders, pigeon-holed as "criminal" and "freak." Then the truth emerges about what really happened the night of the accident and, once again, everything changes. It’s a bleak and tortuous journey for Caleb and Maggie, yet they end up finding comfort and strength from a surprising source: each other.

The Bar Code Tattoo by Suzanne Weyn

Individuality vs. Conformity
Identity vs. Access
Freedom vs. Control
The bar code tattoo. Everybody's getting it. It will make your life easier, they say. It will hook you in. It will become your identity.
But what if you say no? What if you don't want to become a code? For Kayla, this one choice changes everything. She becomes an outcast in her high school. Dangerous things happen to her family. There's no option but to run...for her life.